Monday, December 10, 2007

day one again

It's day one again. I'm so sad. I knew I wasn't pregnant but I would have been happy to be proven wrong. This was the first time my husband was visibly disappointed and that hurts the most. I can't believe I have to start all over again. This is my final clomid cycle and then they are going to insist I do IVF. I have no interest in going through that, it sounds awful from what I've read. I don't have the will to go to work today, but I can't skip another day. Guess I just plaster on my fake smile and pretend all is well. fuck!

10 comments:

Jendeis said...

Oh, hon. Bad news stinks. We're here for you! Have a lovely fruity, alcoholic concoction on me!

I don't really know anything about IVF, but a lot of the other blogging IFers do. Maybe ask around and ask your docs too about the procedures and amount of pain involved.

Big Hugs!

nancy said...

I'm so sorry. ~hugs~

So you have just tried clomid? Any IUIs? Anything else? Just wondering why'd they insist upon IVF before trying anything else.

Good luck. When is your appointment? I'll be hoping your cyst from this cycle is gone so you can move forward. ~hugs~ again!

Meghan said...

Day 1 for me today too. And you're right, it just sucks. I'm sorry you're having a hard day. Hoping this cycle is it for us!!

Supermom said...

nancy- didn't want to answer on your blog...you are going thru enough and don't need to hear my problems. yes, only tried clomid with IUIs so I don't understand why we have to jump to IVF. I'm under 35, it just seems drastic to me. and thanks for scaring the shit out of me regarding the cyst!...kidding, well, sort of. i hope it's gone too. thanks for your support.

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Yoka said...

I am so sorry, it didn't work out. I didn't think the IVF was too bad. It is just the emotional roller coaster that is so painful. Good luck for the next cycle. I hold my thumbs crossed.

Duchess said...

CD 1 blows. there is no way around it. It just plain sucks and I am sorry you are having to go through all of this.

Thalia said...

I'm so sorry about the negative. I hope you are bearing up.

Re IVF it really isn't that bad. When you have had a chance to mourn this cycle, ask around a bit, I think you will hear that it's quite manageable. But now is not the time to make those kinds of decisions.

Michele said...

I'm so sorry. I know how awful it feels. I will add you to my wanna baby prayer list and pray extra hard that it happens this time around for you. Because I'm with you ... I don't want to to IVF either.

Trying said...

I'm so sorry it didn't work for you :( I meant to write earlier, but I can't post replies from work, and once home, as you can see form my blog, I've been busy lately.
IVF isn't as bad as it sounds. I know, we've done it 3 times already, and are in middle of our 4th. My wife said she was so overwhelmed when we heard what's involved in it, but it turned out to be not so bad. Don't give up before you try! It will work for all of us eventually. At least, that's what I keep telling myself.